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hafizah 300989 just average girl next door and extremely petite. don't ever make me mad because trust me,you won't like it. and that is all you need to know. click here for great bargains! friendster
Sunday, January 29, 2006
YAY.got my nets card.im so ecstatic.got those shoes i wanted so badly.found out it wasnt even on sale.it was the retail price.sheesh.but its considered cheap actually :) bad news is,136 bucks gone for today.sigh.60 bucks for hp bill and 20 for ez link.like wtf.the rest spent on other stuffs.my goodness.if i ever spend 100 bucks and more all in one day again,i'll kill myself. was supposed to go for work but i was told not to come since i only have to work for one hour.sheesh.met fuad and hossein on the way.accompanied them at the hawker centre and farhan came.they played pool after slacking at the hawker centre but i didnt play.just watched.pretty interesting i should say.but i'll never play pool.haha.the cue is even longer than me.can you imagine?lol.me and sheena went off because it was getting late and she had to meet her parents..so yeah.thats about it for today... Saturday, January 28, 2006
okay cheaper by the dozen 2 was great but it was too short.ended so fast.and my,hilary duff looks bulimic.seriously.she's soo thin.i think she looks better last time.her cheekbones now are like so sunken.oh well.i guess she still looks hot to people nomatter what lah.haha. ahhhhhhhhhh.my whole body is aching like hell from carrying heavy boxes yesterday at work.and my arm actually just recovered from the hard fall that day but now the ache is back because of the load i had to carry.sheesh. all i want is a simple sorry.is that too much to ask for??sigh.eunice,im hoping that the memoirs of a geisha outing on the 2nd is still on although this is happening. Friday, January 27, 2006
to n: if you think that all these problems are disturbing you and its STUPID,think again because i'd rather we fight and tell the truth than just put on fake smiles when im not even okay with anything.i have never in my life said that im PERFECT and that i want PERFECT friends.nobody in this world is PERFECT.if i think i was PERFECT,i wouldnt have admit my flaws.everyone has flaws.and i didnt say that im not a hypocrite..i admit i am..everyone has to be one sometimes..but you said before you hate hypocrites,which made me think,youre one of them too so do you hate yourself?that day when i was working with you,of course i had to talk to you because i thought everything was already settled..i wasnt putting on a fake smile..and you know i wouldnt do that..if i dont like someone means i dont like..i wont even bother talking to them.and have you ever realised that im always the one giving in whenever theres a fight between us?? and you even said its not in my nature to give in.HAVE YOU REALISED that i always do that..how long have you known me??? but this time im not gonna say sorry unless you give in too..i really wonder why am i always the first to give in?? why for once cant it be you??i do forgive but i dont forget.how can you just so easily forget major things that affects your feelings??i know we may seem close but theres that tiny problem,we dont open up much.well i do actually open up to you.but you never bother to tell me anything..you always tell eunice but not me..whenever i ask you'll just be shaking your head and saying nothings wrong.so i always thought that its pointless for me to keep asking when you always wont tell me things. to e: ya you have lots of problems i know.im really sorry i wasnt there for you after your first break up.you two were always there for me whenever i had any guy problems.but the reason i couldnt be there for you was because i was pissed after what you said to me on the phone..you called me STUPID remember..you ALWAYS do..that wasnt the first time..and ya im mad at you for saying i cant handle the machine..do you even know how much work we have to do??youre not in the position to tell me if i can handle it because all you do is just take orders from people and serve them food.you dont even have to touch any damn computer or the cash register or even do any dumb paperwork.i admit nadirah is more of a hands on person than i am..im more of a book person..thats why she can do everything so easily..im just through with you always calling me stupid and always thinking that i cant do things..you always look down on me..you think youre soooo smart..you always think youre right and others are wrong..HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I FELT AFTER YOU INSULTED ME?? you'll always find some way to insult me but when people say things about you,noooooooo cannot..you'll get so pissed and walk away..imagine me having to listen to your insults like everytime..thats why i said in my previous post you dont know when to shut the hell up..sorry for saying this but its true..i dont say things for fun and dont mean them..so please,will you just stop it?? im sick of it..really..ive had enough of it.. if you two wanna hate me for saying all these then go ahead.i admit i haven exactly been a good friend to anyone.im probably the worst friend anyone could have.like one friend who said in his blog,there's always bound to be a friendship fight..which group of friends never fight before?? fights affect friendship in one way or another,its either good or bad but i really dont see us hating each other after every fight..i dont wanna lose you both as friends..i love you guys nomatter what.that i cant deny..im not gonna let 4 years of friendship go down the drain because of small things.but its time for me to say whatever i have kept for quite long enough already..i just cant take it anymore..its weird how we always fight but we're like so strong.i guess the saying that 'friends who mostly fight have the strongest friendship' is somehow true..not on all groups of friends,but one thing i know,it works for us. Wednesday, January 25, 2006
IF YOU THINK YOU ARE SO BLOODY SMART WHY NOT YOU TRY TAKING MY PLACE AND DO THE JOB.I'LL BET YOU BREAK DOWN AND CRY.I HAD TO DO LIKE A MILLION THINGS ALL AT ONCE.AND TO THINK THAT I EVEN PISSED YOU GUYS WHEN ALL I DID WAS CALLED TO ASK FOR HELP.YOU GUYS JUST KEEP LAUGHING AND MAKING FUN OF ME LIKE IT WAS NOTHING WRONG.AND WORST STILL,THERE WAS THIS PAIN BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY TWISTED MY BODY WHEN I TURNED TO SEE IF THERE WERE ANY CUSTOMERS..AND ACCIDENTALLY SAID IT WAS MY SPINE..YOU GUYS STILL CAN LAUGH AT ME..WHAT IF IT REALLY WAS MY SPINE?!?!?! AND I LANDED UP IN HOSPITAL..WOULD YOU GUYS EVEN VISIT ME..THE FEELING IS EVEN WORST WHEN YOU GUYS ARE MY CLOSEST FRIENDS..YOU PEOPLE ALWAYS LOOK DOWN ON ME LIKE IM SOME KINDA IDIOT WHO CAN NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT..I BET YOU JUST CANT WAIT FOR ME TO FLUNK THE OS AND THEN YOU CAN MOCK ME.YOU KNOW WHAT,I DIDNT REGRET NEARLY SAYING THAT WORD TO YOU IN YOUR FACE THAT DAY.REMEMBER?!?! BECAUSE SOMEONE REALLY NEED TO GIVE YOU A WAKE UP CALL.YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN TO JUST SHUT THAT TRAP OF YOURS.HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I CALLED YOU STUPID RIGHT IN THE FACE..AND YOURE THOSE KIND WHO EVEN GET PISSED AT SMALL THINGS..OBVIOUSLY YOU'LL GET PISSED RIGHT?! BUT OF COURSE IT IS NOTHING COMPARED TO BEING CALLED STUPID LIKE ALMOST EVERYTIME BY YOU.CALL ME A BITCH IF YOU WANT FOR SAYING ALL THESE.I DONT CARE.REALITY CHECK:IF YOU THINK YOUR OWN FRIENDS ARE THE ONE WHO KEEPS BULLYING YOU,THINK AGAIN.BECAUSE IT SEEMS TO ME LIKE ITS THE OTHER WAY ROUND. Tuesday, January 24, 2006
okay changed skin.i find this skin pretty cool.. anyways,yesterday went pw to meet sheena before work.met alicia and the band members too at the pool place but of course i didnt play. after dinner,walked around and i saw this BLOODY NICE pointed shoes at charles and keith..i so want it!! it's really a beauty.and good thing is,its flat.it's not like you can find gorgeous pointed flat shoes anywhere..but sadly i can only get it after i get my pay..by that time the shoes will either be gone,or no more on discount..=( but its okay i'll ask my mum to pay.of course i'll pay her back lah.haha.i soooooo want those shoes! went for work after that.had to do some cleaning up and front facing but obviously we wont do cleaning since we did it really that day.the staff ended up slacking instead.lol.it was more of gathering and chit chat instead of WORKING.hahaha.damn funny ahh. the results will be revealed in less than a month.im scaaaaarrrrreeedddd..sigh.. Wednesday, January 18, 2006
work was like SHHHHIIIIIITTTTTT today.wtf.firstly,i had to use this stupid thingy since this lady used the cold storage card..first time using it so i wasnt familiar..but anyways i just used it..didnt know i was supposed to use the whole booklet which includes the edc copy,customer's copy and office copy..i only used 2 of it.so i tore only 2 of it from the booklet..so i zap the card and the cold storage thing..in the end only the ink came out on the customers one..then i didnt know what to do..so she was like,'dont you want me to sign it' then i said erm ya..lol..so she signed it..thought everything was okay until i found out the edc copy dont have her particulars..the dumb machine!!! the ink didnt come out on the edc copy..and i found out the office copy need to use also.sigh.how dumb could i be right.sheesh..so ya got scolding from kak saadiah..sigh..she said they wont accept the blank one although the customer did sign it..then she said we have to pay for everything.45.25 bucks.i think I must pay not her..like as if the staff will pay since obviously its my fault not theirs..haizz.great.how fucking nice.firstly i lost the invoice that day,and now this.things couldnt get much worse.but good thing is,now ive learnt how to use the cold storage card. not only that, i was screamed at by a customer.well not exactly screamed at.almost.she scolded me.wtf sia.she brought in the green basket from cold storage and took stuff from guardian..so i thought that she didnt know she have to pay the cold storage stuff at the cold storage cashier counter,not guardian's one..(almost everyday people buy stuff from cold storage but go to guardian's cashier counter) so i told her NICELY to go the express service at cold storage..she scolded me..she was like 'ya lah i know lah! i took stuff from guardian what..'sheesh..give me a break lah..how the hell should i know she know right..she even brought the basket inside sia.she could say nicely..and that wasnt the worst part.when i scanned one of the stuff,there wasnt a beep sound because of the sticker on the code so i took it out for her..tried scanning it again but cannot since got some bits of it left..guess what she said?'HOW LONG YOU WANT ME TO WAIT AH???'i was like bloody hell..im trying my best to help her and she says that..then she say..go scan at the cold storage scanner lah..i was like WTF.this is guardian's stuff..so i told her NICELY that i cant since its guardian's one..then she said ya i know!!i was like damn fcuked up at what she's trying to point out to me..then she demanded me to take a new one for her at the back.sheesh..after swapping the dbs card for her and stuff she asked me 'girl you orang baru ah..first day ah?' god..what an idiot..if it was my first day i wouldnt even know how to swap the card and stuffs sia..stupid question..but hell..can customers PLEASE dont scream at me anymore?!?!? im fucking sick of it..when they ask me stuff and i dont know where is it,at least i did help them find and couldnt..sometimes really dont have..and they dont believe me..they'll be like..are you sure dont have or youre saying it because you cant find it.give me a break for goodness sake..ive been there less than 2 weeks..i dont even have my uniform yet!! are you people fucking blind or something??? obviously im new there so stop treating me like im some punching bag you can scream at..sigh.. weird thing is,when i did closing with nadirah that day,everything went smoothly and it was fast.but today with kak saadiah it was damn slow,the place was a mess..i got a headache doing it with her..i cant wait to quit..i'll probably quit after i get my first pay..we have to do like a million things in guardian..you have to do everything and nobody is only restricted to doing one thing..there's returning..cashiering,ibt,hht,ticketing,opening the store and closing,computer work..paper work..ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Monday, January 16, 2006
okay..yesterday was fadzil's party..it was okay lahh..then ate and all at his house..just watched the longest yard..then nadirah had to leave..so after a few minutes i left also..kinda felt out of place..so ya..took 13 home then this bloody ass driver gave this fucked up attitude.wtf.feel like smacking his stupid face..i used coins..then he didnt give me any ticket..so he said..do you have bus card..i said nope..since got no money inside..then he said..no i want ez link..thats why he didnt give me a ticket..but i couldnt be bothered because i did pay..so i just sat down and ignore him. then went i was walking home from the bus stop..there was this pyscho following me!!!!!! god.it was fucking scary sia.at first i heard someone said hi behind me..thought it was some mat or some idiot la..then i just ignore..but could feel he was following me since i could hear his footsteps..so i walked faster..then he just keep walking behind me!!! oh my god.fortunately there were some people at my block waiting for the lift..so i quickly went..then he went away and said bye..when i turned around he was smiling at me..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..ugh theres this clear memory of his face in my mind..uggghhhhh!!!!! i swear i was damn scared.sigh.but lucky that time was evening..not so late at night..haizz heard from nadirah that maximum working hours is minimised to 22 per week.bloody hell.pay's gonna be damn low sia.then now cannot work with another person..ahhhh!!! im gonna die working alone..have to do everything alone including paperwork.thats a killer.sigh.feel like quitting already...... Thursday, January 12, 2006
work was okay lahh.sometimes too slacky sometimes too busy because working with the i/c but dont really care lah.better if she give work so i wont be bored to death.thank god i didnt get fired for misplacing the in voice.haizz.all the i/c said was just ask from the supplier.furthermore i was late that day.overslept.lucky she didnt scold me..i was kinda prepared to get fired actually since i lost the in voice.anyways,i realised lots of customers have been going up to me speaking in chinese!! what the heck sia..then some even got translator..haha..damn funny ah that one.her husband had to translate for me so that i could understand what type of soap she wants..then there was this chinese lady who cant speak english..she had to do sign language to me so that i can know what she wants..i miss so many people!!!!social life is like so dead sia..haven been to any parties..outings..haizz..but two days ago had late dinner with fuad farhan danial and hossein..nisa had to go off early.so yeah.life has been boring lately.. stop giving me the oh-i-know-more-than-you-so-im-smarter-than-you-since-im-more-independant look.i freaking hate it.wtf.youre so damn lucky i didnt shout at your bloody face when you corrected me when i actually didnt make that mistake!! even if i was wrong and you wanted to correct me the least you could do was say it nicely and not rudely like as if youre the boss of me.you didnt even have the decency to say sorry when i told you the real thing.i know i made lots of mistakes..yes its my fault..but you seriously dont have to give me the smug look..of course i know you were there way before me..im new..you made it seem like you knew every single thing..and im sick of the im-so-nice-and-friendly-look to everybody when youre such a hypocrite behind their back.everyone is.so dont say you hate hypocrites.people have to be sometimes.we're humans.i may seem jealous that youre an outgoing person and im not..but im NOT jealous at all.at least i dont give people that i-like-you look and talk bad about them behind their back.its fucking fake.im standing up for my rights this time..youre like always giving me that look like youre looking down on me sia..i know im not as smart..not as independant.not as friendly as you are.but for once im happy for being who i am because at least im not a FAKE. Saturday, January 07, 2006
ok today did alot of stuff..from 9 until 5 plus..supposed to be 3..but extended coz too many stuff to do..was yelled at by a customer for giving excess change..accidentally..because i was too kancheong..had two transaction voids..but one wasnt my fault..the bloody machine lahh..come out so slow..wtf..then now..the in voice dont know go where..my fault again..i left it at the counter..was supposed to put in the log book..shitt im gonna get yelled at again..by kak saadiah..and im not surprised if i get fired...haizz..oh god save me..ahhhhhhh..bloody hell.,.im freaking scared right now....i realy dont know where the in voice went to..shitt lahh..haizz..allah please save me!!!!!!!!! Thursday, January 05, 2006
visited the school yesterday.god.it was HUGE.but i hate it.i really felt weird when i stepped into the building..dont know ah..just this weird feeling..cant be explained..anyway i went to see the band members..pity them sia..now so little people..and when tai jin saw me,she just burst out crying in front of me..haizz..damn sad ah seeing her cry..made me wanna cry also..i was wondering why she cried..then she said that its just different without me..i guess she's not used to me being out of flute section..i mean we're damn close in flute section..she have always known me to be in the section and now im not..i was kinda touched since i have never had a friend cried because im gone..gone as not really gonna be there with them all the time like i used to last year..and some more she cry not those a little one..its like she just burst out crying out of nowhere..haizz..damn sad ah..well..nothing's forever right? hope the band can do well for their next syf.best of luck =) work wasnt that bad yesterday.didnt make any mistakes with the cash register,which was good lah.but didnt had many customers so most of the time just slack and check the ticketing stuffs.kak hidayah taught me IBT but still couldnt understand.anyways,yesterday wasnt as hard probably because nobody used nets.all use cash which made it easier for me ah.haha.still haven gone through a successful nets payment,hope i will soon..need lots of practise for it.still struggling with the closing part..it's just too confusing lah..haizz..fuad and danial paid me a visit.didnt realise they came in because i was talking to kak hidayah.then they still can hide behind the skin care place.then i saw danial's tailed hair which can be 'tied into a braid' so called out his name.haha.then fuad wanted panadol.didnt realise the one he wanted was right next to me at the cash register.stupid of me lah.but nvm lah,made me walk to the place..so yesterday wasnt that bad lah.better than the one with kak salmah..tmr afternoon shift again..haizz..but not sure with who..the next two days would be with kak saadiah..im not gonna believe what the staff said about her until i experience it myself..she wasnt that bad when i met her the first time..well even if she's cranky or what shitt,just tahan lah..she's the i/c..so im not surprised if she's fussy and stuff..so i guess im prepared for the worst lah.haha. Tuesday, January 03, 2006
okay i know this may seem late..but heck lah..still gonna type this down.gonna make this a simple entry coz my freaking sister has to use the laptop..anyways happy 2006! here are my resolutions for this year.. 1)be more appreciative of myself 2)dont be such a blur blur or some dumb dumb..like i always was 3)dont trust guys too easily.. 4)make better decisions 5)be more friendly well..thats it i guess..i dont wanna ask for anything much this year except for good o level results..the waiting is killing me!! okay i haven exactly been talking much to certain people..so so sorry..we should meet up sometime..well hope we do..but then again its gonna be hard since im working..ahhh.my social life's gonna be dead soon..hmmm im starting work today..i/c ask me come today..im a little excited but scared also..really dont know whats in store for me..so wish me luck! to nadirah,eunice,sheena,fadzil,nabil,fuad,jasmi and the rest..hope i can see you all soon..must keep in touch! haha. |